When I try to start a conversation with them and they responded to me with a single word, I will be afraid. I don't know, is this some kind of traumatism or what. Is this some kind of disorder? Why do I have to feel like this whenever I go? Why I can't have a friend that will never feel disappointed in me? I admitted I did something wrong and I apologised but why they can't forgive me? Did they forget how happy we were when we spent time together? Is this really friendship? I wish, for once that I have friends that I will never be worried about how do I act in front of them, what I will talk to them, how I will treat them and they will never be disappointed in me. I wish I could be free.
I lost too many friends. I'm afraid that I will keep losing friends. When they acted cold towards me, "Is she angry with me?" "I did something wrong?" "The other will hate me too." and eventually, I will cry.